Blessed Be

Today is Samhain. I lost a friend last night may He be in the Summerland's. I miss You Mike and Chincha  for I know that You both are with Me I hope I make You guys proud. My Mother died several years ago on All Saints Day at 4:45am. I will always remember this day as long as I live Mike died on Nov 7 this will make 2 yrs He has been gone.I still feel the loss of both Mike and Chincha but at this time when the veil is thin I feel close. I know I am not close to My loved ones in Miami and My aunt and I have had a falling out but I feel with time and love all will work out My heart is amazing it knows how to love openly. I have no fear when it comes to Love maybe thats My weakness and My strength I think so . Blessed Be to All and a joyous Samhain

Today is My second day in My new home it is so lovely it's perfect for Me it's not to big just right My furniture fits perfectly. I am so glad I have friends who help Me I am loved. I know that I have friends I want to thank My wonderful teacher Kim who gave Me a wonderful gift You don't know how much You coming ment to me Thank You BB to All

Well today I signed the lease on My apartment for a year. I moved a few items into the apartment, I figured I would move more into it tonight and maybe go look at some shower curtains. Norma and I can't live like this much longer I am ready to pull out My hair and scream I took My Wicca books to the car and parts of My altar I can't take My supplies till later in the week maybe She is right I should just go now. This will be so hard on Buddy She is arguing and fighting with Me because She is scared. I'm scared also. This is a big step for Me but She doesn't see it that way, She sees it at Me hurting her She sees it as I don't like being here She thinks I feel so bad about being here but thats not it and I want Her to know I love her for Her and I wouldn't harm her harm none is My motto what is so sad is that She told Me I am hurting her so much that My karma is coming back to hurt Me. Blessed Be

Well I took My first steps to becoming Me I paid for the electricity for the apartment and tomorrow I pay the rent on the apartment. I am so happy yet I feel sad because a part of My life is changing and I can't and really truthfully I don't want to go back to. It's like a door is opening and I am running to it. My first steps to being the person I am ment to be is taking My independence and My respect My honor My truth and making something of Me not hiding in My fear and letting someone treat Me as a child. I plan to go shopping thursday or Friday for food I am off either day and I know Aldi's will have good prices on food I can deal with can goods frozen food a few snacks I can figure something out to keep Me for a few weeks. I will not lie and say I am not scared because I am  but this is a big step for Me a major step in the right direction. I am taking My power My ability My knowledge and My ways and making a life that I can be proud of that I can say I have done t...

I woke up at 4 am thanks to my furry alarm clocksI will miss them when I move out. I wonder who else I will miss either Human or furry, I had a call last night asking if I had moved yet.Someone I consider a Dear friend I don't know how to feel, I thought this person was or is a friend would She not help Me move. I think the person I have become doesn't agree with some people. I wonder about who My friends are I know I am not completely Me yet but I am working on Me My first big step is moving out. This is a big step for Me and I want it to happen soon.I passed My Par 1 exam the other day and I spoke with My Boss about working the registers as well as the floor and She talked to the head boss and He thinks thats a good idea. I know My thoughts are scattered but I feel I need to put My thoughts down I am not a poet or an artist I am good at cooking and baking I even think I am good at being a friend I hope I am a good student finding  Myself was the biggest step I have taken it...

I checked My email last night and was left a message that I was not what they wanted at Target. I think it is funny I was looking forward to the extra paycheck to hold Me  over with My bills it's ok I am going to figure things out cut back on spending I think I have plenty of study books and a wonderful teacher. I have to call Shannon back on Friday about My apartment, I am so ready it's funny how Norma acts like what I do for her is ok. I ordered the coffee so She would have some before I move out which I had planned on her keeping the coffee pot. I paid almost a thousand dollars for the day bed sheets and all and I am selling it for 150 still have not heard from Blair if She wants the frame friday Bo and I are cleaning out the storage building see how that goes today is going to be a busy day.

I bought a copier for Me to use I didn't go crazy I bought an inexpensive one so I could copy things I thought were important. I copied everyone of My tarot so I can do an assignment for My teacher I am to read the cards and write down what I feel now I plan to do My assignment I am to explain My feeling and what the cards mean to Me...... Blessed Be

I had a word with My aunt last night She told Me I'm not a Witch and if I was She would kick Me out. She said I am lying about being a Witch and that it is an expensive hobby or phase I am going through,In honor of My Teacher and Myself I told Her The Truth to which I see it. My truth is I know not whom I am But I know what I am and am proud of it . I am blessed for it....... Blessed Be........ So Mote it Be

I spoke with My teacher today.She told Me something from My lesson Yesterday I had forgotten Living in My Truth.  I learned it again today after talking to My Teacher who showed Me the error in My ways yesterday I hope. She knows how wonderful She is in reminding Me to remember to live in My Truth Thank You........ Blessed Be

I have always given My love freely and what ever I have freely also I guess in some ways I am Bohemian. I have always given which is a curse and a gift . I get Used and I also find truth I have learned recently about Perfect Love and Perfect Trust. I have also learned friendship and Family. I came home yesterday to hurtful words and being called a liar I was told I am a teen in an adult body I am rebelling and I lie. I am told I need to start carrying a watch so I can learn to tell time. yet I seem to be like a puppy who gives perfect Love and perfect trust no matter how I am treated I give with love. I went to bed early with a headache and heartache learning how. I am really thought of I cried for My loss I pray to The God and Goddess to find Me an apartment soon so I can move on with My life and learn how to find Myself and also Perfect love and Perfect trust........ Blessed Be

Well today is a good morning I am relaxed on the porch to negative energy just the sun Rising and My opening up to the day. I have a new Tat it's a pair of handcuffs,I have it as a symbol of My naughtiness I never claimed to be right or wrong I am just Me. I am happy to finally say that with a smile on My face

Today is My first day as a student of Wicca. My first lesson is to figure out My comfort level what I see These words to mean and how I imagine non Wiccan's see these words to mean.. the Words Are...Wicca,Witchcraft, Power, Ritual, Magic, Occult, Pagan, Spell and Earth Religion. How do I feel about These and how do others view them and how do I feel about these words .... I feel they are in a whole who and what I aim to study and learn about My Religion it all comes down to How I feel about Me and My Religion and how others view My choice in Religion

I find it funny that when I want another pet Maddie brings Gabriel and luigi for a visit.They are so much fun I adore waking up to being licked. Buddy is getting old knowing He has a bad heart hurts He is relaxing near Me I am told He is My familiar and so is Lucky I feel blessed to have a great family and also such loving and wonderful pets.....

I have never been so lost in figuring out My faith as finding a book and reading it and still not understanding what it is saying it is not written by an author I have heard of it's an ebook that is called Wicca book One it's the title of the book with No author. So I will skip to another book that I can understand I feel bad since I was 13% into the bookI feel very blessed to be able to read. Thank You Blessed Mothers Blessed Be

I realized Yesterday that everyone has an idea of faith but are not sure how faith works or how to actually share it in words without causing a fuss either verbally or physically how to explain to Person A how the Faith they have is the same as Person B but They don't have the same ideas and Principals yet not always the same philosophy I am blessed to be able to know My family and Friends each have their own ideas and Faith yet some want to shove it in My face and others are happy that I have chosen a path. Blessed Be

I have a Biological Sister who I have never seemed to be close to. I have over time found Sister's, I have found who have showed more love and ken ship than any biological family.I am blessed To have Jennifer, Lisa, Julie, Maranda,Jessie,April and Toria .My path has grow to include such wonderful Sister and I feel blessed for such wonderful people in My Life Blessed Be.......

Waking up early daily I take  Myself outside an feel the sunshine and comfort.  Thinking helps and I enjoy thanking the Goddess and God for the beauty of nature.... Blessed Be

How confusing do We make Our life out to be. How much of Our lives do We just give to others without thinking. Case in point allowed My life My very being to be walked on and to be beneath others, In the last Year thanks To Maranda for pointing it out and the help from Valley I am becoming the woman I am meant to be I hope My friends are OK with Me giving there names Julie and Maranda have taught Me to take control even as someone else has fought Me on this for a long time it's that I gave My free will away and know that I am working on it letting My spirit fly per say it surprises people I am open and real..... Now Who am I in this life....... 

Being Wiccan is a way of Life I feel I was born to. Yet the faith My family has chosen for Me and the ways I was taught to hide who I am has brought Me to this point.  In my life were I feel I must open up and tell Everyone I am Wiccan I am a Witch I am proud. My Sister Jennifer helped Me open Myself to My faith and beliefs.  I took My path alone over time I have hid who I am for fear of what people would think of Me for I was always taught I should value what others thought of Me. I have had to hide and over time push My faith inside of Me and hide Myself read and study in quiet and silence I have met others . I have always missed My Dear Sister Jennifer who opened My mind My path and My spirit Thank You Sis and I also thank Maranda and April for helping Me to open up in the last year and let My faith be free and ejoy what The Goddesses have given Me Blessed Be All.........