Blessed Be

Today is Samhain. I lost a friend last night may He be in the Summerland's. I miss You Mike and Chincha  for I know that You both are with Me I hope I make You guys proud. My Mother died several years ago on All Saints Day at 4:45am. I will always remember this day as long as I live Mike died on Nov 7 this will make 2 yrs He has been gone.I still feel the loss of both Mike and Chincha but at this time when the veil is thin I feel close. I know I am not close to My loved ones in Miami and My aunt and I have had a falling out but I feel with time and love all will work out My heart is amazing it knows how to love openly. I have no fear when it comes to Love maybe thats My weakness and My strength I think so . Blessed Be to All and a joyous Samhain

Today is My second day in My new home it is so lovely it's perfect for Me it's not to big just right My furniture fits perfectly. I am so glad I have friends who help Me I am loved. I know that I have friends I want to thank My wonderful teacher Kim who gave Me a wonderful gift You don't know how much You coming ment to me Thank You BB to All

Well today I signed the lease on My apartment for a year. I moved a few items into the apartment, I figured I would move more into it tonight and maybe go look at some shower curtains. Norma and I can't live like this much longer I am ready to pull out My hair and scream I took My Wicca books to the car and parts of My altar I can't take My supplies till later in the week maybe She is right I should just go now. This will be so hard on Buddy She is arguing and fighting with Me because She is scared. I'm scared also. This is a big step for Me but She doesn't see it that way, She sees it at Me hurting her She sees it as I don't like being here She thinks I feel so bad about being here but thats not it and I want Her to know I love her for Her and I wouldn't harm her harm none is My motto what is so sad is that She told Me I am hurting her so much that My karma is coming back to hurt Me. Blessed Be

Well I took My first steps to becoming Me I paid for the electricity for the apartment and tomorrow I pay the rent on the apartment. I am so happy yet I feel sad because a part of My life is changing and I can't and really truthfully I don't want to go back to. It's like a door is opening and I am running to it. My first steps to being the person I am ment to be is taking My independence and My respect My honor My truth and making something of Me not hiding in My fear and letting someone treat Me as a child. I plan to go shopping thursday or Friday for food I am off either day and I know Aldi's will have good prices on food I can deal with can goods frozen food a few snacks I can figure something out to keep Me for a few weeks. I will not lie and say I am not scared because I am  but this is a big step for Me a major step in the right direction. I am taking My power My ability My knowledge and My ways and making a life that I can be proud of that I can say I have done t...

I woke up at 4 am thanks to my furry alarm clocksI will miss them when I move out. I wonder who else I will miss either Human or furry, I had a call last night asking if I had moved yet.Someone I consider a Dear friend I don't know how to feel, I thought this person was or is a friend would She not help Me move. I think the person I have become doesn't agree with some people. I wonder about who My friends are I know I am not completely Me yet but I am working on Me My first big step is moving out. This is a big step for Me and I want it to happen soon.I passed My Par 1 exam the other day and I spoke with My Boss about working the registers as well as the floor and She talked to the head boss and He thinks thats a good idea. I know My thoughts are scattered but I feel I need to put My thoughts down I am not a poet or an artist I am good at cooking and baking I even think I am good at being a friend I hope I am a good student finding  Myself was the biggest step I have taken it...

I checked My email last night and was left a message that I was not what they wanted at Target. I think it is funny I was looking forward to the extra paycheck to hold Me  over with My bills it's ok I am going to figure things out cut back on spending I think I have plenty of study books and a wonderful teacher. I have to call Shannon back on Friday about My apartment, I am so ready it's funny how Norma acts like what I do for her is ok. I ordered the coffee so She would have some before I move out which I had planned on her keeping the coffee pot. I paid almost a thousand dollars for the day bed sheets and all and I am selling it for 150 still have not heard from Blair if She wants the frame friday Bo and I are cleaning out the storage building see how that goes today is going to be a busy day.

I bought a copier for Me to use I didn't go crazy I bought an inexpensive one so I could copy things I thought were important. I copied everyone of My tarot so I can do an assignment for My teacher I am to read the cards and write down what I feel now I plan to do My assignment I am to explain My feeling and what the cards mean to Me...... Blessed Be

I had a word with My aunt last night She told Me I'm not a Witch and if I was She would kick Me out. She said I am lying about being a Witch and that it is an expensive hobby or phase I am going through,In honor of My Teacher and Myself I told Her The Truth to which I see it. My truth is I know not whom I am But I know what I am and am proud of it . I am blessed for it....... Blessed Be........ So Mote it Be

I spoke with My teacher today.She told Me something from My lesson Yesterday I had forgotten Living in My Truth.  I learned it again today after talking to My Teacher who showed Me the error in My ways yesterday I hope. She knows how wonderful She is in reminding Me to remember to live in My Truth Thank You........ Blessed Be

I have always given My love freely and what ever I have freely also I guess in some ways I am Bohemian. I have always given which is a curse and a gift . I get Used and I also find truth I have learned recently about Perfect Love and Perfect Trust. I have also learned friendship and Family. I came home yesterday to hurtful words and being called a liar I was told I am a teen in an adult body I am rebelling and I lie. I am told I need to start carrying a watch so I can learn to tell time. yet I seem to be like a puppy who gives perfect Love and perfect trust no matter how I am treated I give with love. I went to bed early with a headache and heartache learning how. I am really thought of I cried for My loss I pray to The God and Goddess to find Me an apartment soon so I can move on with My life and learn how to find Myself and also Perfect love and Perfect trust........ Blessed Be